From: E. H. Williams, my email address is: arcady@fastnet.co.uk
Disclaimer: all characters are the property of Paramount television,
and I acknowledge that Paramount has exclusive rights to the Star Trek
universe.
This is set in the 4th season; and connects to the episode which, if memory serves me correctly, is called 'For the Cause.' It's a Garak/Ziyal story; however, there's no sex ( although I have to say, practically the only thing that has stretched my credulity to breaking point in the whole ST canon is that two people would spend hours in a sauna without removing at least SOME of their clothes). This is basically a mood piece, based on what might reasonably be expected to go through Garak's mind during a date with the child of his worst enemy. The quote's taken from a poem by Lawrence Durrell; I liked it, so hope you'll forgive me a moment of pretension. Hope, too, that you enjoy the story; write and let me know.
Here alone in a stone city
I sing the rock, the sea quill,
Over Greece the one punctual star.
To be king of the clock -
I know, I know - to share
Boundaries with the bird...
To be the owner of stones
To be a king of islands,
Share a bed with a star,
Be a subject of sails.
*Lawrence Durrell 1940 (Exile in Athens)*
In a Stone City
'Aren't you going to take your clothes off?' she asked him. Elim
Garak smiled. Dukat's daughter played the innocent well, but he had
never been one to take an easy bait. He said
'In a minute. Give me a chance to get comfortable; warm
up a little.' He could feel the heat beating up from the surface
of the rock, through the fabric of his jacket. Ziyal was right: the
station was a chilly place for his people, and Garak was continually tensed
against the cold. Sometimes, he sat in his quarters and stared out
into the darkness, wondering if it could be any colder out there, among
the distant stars, than it was enclosed in this resented haven. The
Order had chosen the location of his exile with their customary precise
cruelty: a place where it was always night, and always cold. He sighed
and lay back against the ledge.
'Well,' Ziyal said, echoing his earlier question. 'What
shall we talk about first?'
He wanted to ask: *what do you know of your grandfather?* He
must be getting old; the urge to reminisce was strong and there was no-one
outside Cardassia who shared his memories, now that Tain was gone.
The closest link was this girl, his enemy's daughter, and her knowledge
was only second hand. Her grandfather had died long before she was
born, and now Garak wondered whether they had been wrong, to insist on
his execution. Dukat Tarac had protested his innocence at the last;
retracting his confession a moment before the poison took effect, and Garak
did not think he had imagined the flash of triumph in the old man's eyes.
'We can talk about anything,' she said, a little hesitantly.
'Whatever you want.'
*I want you to stop treating this like a game*, Garak had told Julian
Bashir in that engaging holosuite program of the doctor's, but the truth
of the matter was that it had all been a game; of no more consequence than
the chess the humans played. Pawns moved into place, kings deposed
and all of it empty and soon forgotten. He thought: *how could I,
who understand so well the falsity of truth and the reality of lies, have
believed the greatest lie of all; that power is something you can hold
in your hand and keep.* Does it always come to this in the
end; dreaming by the fire, telling stories about the old days to the pretty
child at your side? He turned his head to look at her.
'What would you like to hear?'
'Oh, anything,' she said again. 'Tell me about anything.'
She rested her head on her arm and her blue gaze held his own.
They had not managed to knock that out of her in that prison camp, then.
'Anything, mm?'
Should he describe the look on her father's face when her grandfather
died? Or the smell of smoke and burning metal on the bridge of the
Romulan ship, just before Enabran Tain let go forever? Instead he
said, lightly
'Did your father ever take you up to Sessara?'
'No, never.'
'No? I'm surprised. That's something you really should
see. They've preserved the old Hebitian remains, and the aqueduct
was restored a long time ago. There's a walkway, beside the canal,
and you can look down and see the whole city. And it's very quiet.
Even when there are hordes of people up there, you still feel that you're
alone. Voices seem to vanish in the air. I remember, I went
up there one evening, just to walk in the gardens, and the whole place
seemed occupied by ghosts. The groves were full of shadows.'
'We meant to go,' she said. 'But there was never time.'
'Ah, there never is.' - and then it's too late. The sand runs
out through the bottom of the glass and if you try to grasp it slips through
your fingers and away. It seemed to be sliding from him as he talked.
*It must be the heat,* he thought, *relaxing me*. It crossed his
mind that she might have poisoned him; how, he
could not have said. The memories of his past drifted by with
a hallucinatory clarity; one image after another, but perhaps it was not
poison after all, but only the heat and age. He could feel her watching
him.
'If you don't feel like talking, that's all right,' she said,
anxiously.
He laughed, genuinely amused.
'If Doctor Bashir could hear you now. No-one's said that
to me for a long time.'
'The Doctor likes listening to you,' Ziyal said, 'Nerys
told me. She said he looks up to you.'
'I'm sure she added that she can't imagine why,' Garak remarked.
Ziyal said nothing. He wondered if Kira had shared all of her speculations
about his friendship with Bashir. He could envisage the Major's tart
tongue having a good many things to say on that subject. He smiled.
Ziyal said, coaxing
'Tell me.'
'No, it's nothing. Just a thought that occurred to me,
that's all.'
He stretched, lazy with the heat, and closed his eyes. Across
the room, he heard the rustle of silk against scales.
'Well, I think I'll follow your example,' he said. Sitting
up, he took off his own garments and folded them into a neat pile by the
side of the ledge. The surface of the simulated rock was smooth,
baking with the heat and comforting against his skin. Nonetheless,
he shivered as he lay back. He said
'How much did your father tell you about me?'
'I told you before. That you were in the Obsidian Order.
That you were Enabran Tain's right hand man before you turned against him.'
He almost uttered the automatic denial, but what did it matter, now?
These people could mean little to her: Enabran Tain, old lizard; her grandfather:
tales told to a child at bedtime, and no more real than the heroes of the
old Hebitian sagas.
'My father said you were right,' Ziyal whispered. 'What
you did, to Tain.'
He felt his breath catch in his throat. After a long moment she
said, uncertainly
'Garak?'
'You know, very few people have had the privilege of rendering
me speechless.' Then he added, making sure 'He knew?'
'Yes, he knew. He started making enquiries, before your
trial.' She gave a soft little laugh. 'He was afraid they would
commute your sentence from death to exile. He wanted to make sure
that they exacted
the maximum penalty, so that you would pay for what you did to my grandfather.
Then he found out the facts of the matter, which Tain had tried so hard
to conceal. I know the truth,' she added.
Garak said
'No. You can never know. It's like the view from
the Sessara gardens. There is no single view; it changes, depending
on where you stand.' His mouth was dry. He swallowed, then
asked
'And your father wasn't tempted, after everything that had passed
between himself and me, to adjust the existing evidence a little, so that
they would put me to death?'
'But he thought you were right. He's more fair minded
than you give him credit for. Even though you had my grandfather
killed all those years before, he still thought you were right to betray
Tain. He didn't say what he had discovered, because he still wanted
his revenge, and so he let the charges Tain had falsified against you stand,
but he didn't press for a death sentence after that. And he was in a position
to do so. His vote swung the balance for your exile, did you know
that?'
'So your father saved my life, but didn't spare me my sojourn
here. I'm not sure whether I should thank him for that or not.'
'He told me what Tain had been planning. He said that
it would have been political suicide for Tain, and that he would have brought
everyone down with him - the Central Command, the Order, everyone. How
could he argue with what you did? You sacrificed everything for them.
You took the blame for Tain's actions. You saved my father's career,
and you saved Tain from himself.'
Garak said
'My dear, you're a romantic. It wasn't quite as simple
as that.' He sighed. 'Tain always had a fatal weakness for the grand
gesture. He wasn't altogether misguided. If his plan had worked,
the Empire would be in a far stronger position today. But the chances
of it succeeding were so slight. I tried to explain this to him,
but he wouldn't listen. I spent a whole night pleading with him,
but he was adamant. I came all the way back from Romulus to argue
with him. I should have stayed there. They would have welcomed
me, under the circumstances. Ironic,' he mused 'Tain died - perhaps
- betrayed by a Romulan official who wasn't what Tain thought he was.
They never are. He didn't learn from his past mistakes. I believe,
Ziyal, that you always get a second chance. It's yours to take if
you have the wit to perceive it.'
'And you?' she asked. 'Will you?'
'Recognise my second chance, when it comes? I don't know.'
They lay in silence for a few moments. Then the girl said
'I'm going into the inner chambers for a while. If you'll
excuse me...'
'Go ahead.'
He watched her with covert appreciation as she slipped off the ledge
and disappeared through the doorway. She was tall; muscular from
the years of breaking stones in the prison camp, and her hair fell down
her back like rain.
He thought: *you are more Cardassian than Bajoran, I think. You
enjoy playing dangerous games*. He had recognised that when she had
stepped through the door of the shop and invited him with apparent artlessness
to share her holosuite program. *Oh, you are your father's daughter,*
Garak thought; *no wonder he risked so much for you.* One never
knew which way Dukat would jump, and it was a quality that Ziyal seemed
to have inherited. She certainly had a thorough understanding of
her own allure, and how best to use it. He imagined that this had
been her principal form of defence, back in the camp. *And will you
turn that weapon against me, daughter of Dukat, who hates me and owes me
so much?* He wondered which Dukat resented more: the old man's death or
his own preservation by the man he so detested. Garak was inclined
to favour the latter possibility.
He raised himself on his elbows and looked towards the doorway through
which Ziyal had gone. Clearly he was expected to follow her
through into the inner chambers, and he thought: *no. No, I don't
think I'll do that. I am not an old man, but I'm not young,
either, and I've no intention of becoming entranced, except so far
as it amuses me*. Wryly, he thought back to her original invitation.
Share the heat, indeed. Would that be the furnace of sexual desire
or the torch of romantic love? He needed both, and she knew it, but
there was still a part of his soul that remained untouched by the promise
of warmth: the cold and bitter light of reason. He wondered what
she would do, if they became lovers and her father returned. Would
she indeed hand over his head as a birthday present ("Foolishly, he fell
in love with me; I have him trapped; he's at your mercy, Father")?
Or would she nobly protect him from Dukat's wrath ("No, you mustn't!
I love him!") and incur a debt of gratitude that would tie him to her forever?
Neither prospect was appealing. Garak had never had a taste for melodrama,
and there was a strong possibility here of both tragedy and farce.
Then again, the moment might be worth it: to lie again in young arms, confide
everything, exchange the dusty memories and the petty intrigues for the
pleasure of sexual surrender. He'd had the inclination before, many
times; looking into someone's eyes and seeing there the prospect of absolution
("You can talk
to me, Elim, now we're alone. You know you can trust me.").
Voices from the past echoed in his head. Confession had often
proved more seductive than the flesh, but a greater enjoyment even than
that had been power, and the maintaining of delicate balances. Now,
he had stepped out onto the tightrope again. His enemy's daughter
stalked him; the disrupter lay beyond his reach on the ledge, and she was
quick, Ziyal, he had noticed that. The old excitement ran electric
through him; the exhilaration of taking a chance. He could afford
to indulge himself a little, now that it was only his own life at stake.
He turned his cheek to the warmth of the ledge and shut his eyes.
He must have dozed, for he dreamed of Sessara. It was evening;
the light falling from the sky and the shadows running long and green across
the gardens. He rested his hands on the balustrade and looked out
over the city. The lamps were coming on along the Iket, and above
the sharp edge of the mountains hung a single star: Aress, the brightest
star of all, that only rises when summer is almost gone. Dreaming,
he watched the city for a while and then turned to walk back through the
gardens. Someone was waiting
for him in the hamath grove and he saw without surprise that it was
Dukat Tarac. The ghost greeted Garak with a nod.
'You're looking very well, considering,' Elim Garak told him.
'Look closer,' the dead man said.
Garak did so and he could see the poison, now; tracing a landscape
beneath the Gul's skin.
'It burns,' the Gul said, and smiled with Ziyal's smile. 'Well,
no need to apologise, Elim. What's done is done.' He sighed
and it rattled in his throat. From the depths of the grove, a procession
of shadows
stepped out. Each held a light between their hands; each looked
Elim Garak in the face as they passed. He recognised them all.
He turned back to Dukat, but he was gone and Ziyal stood there instead.
She said in concern
'You're bleeding.' He looked down at his hands and there was,
indeed, blood upon them.
'You mustn't worry,' he said, to comfort her. 'It's not
my own.'
She reached out and took his hands. He tried to draw away, but
they seemed locked together.
'Don't you see?' she said. 'It's the blood that binds
us.' and then she pulled him forward and he was falling, down into
night and beyond.
He awoke with a start. Ziyal was sitting beside him on the ledge.
He was holding her hand in his own and his grip must have hurt her, but
she was silent. She was looking at him with her grandfather's eyes
and there was no sign of the schemes that he had been fearing, nothing
there but pity.
'It was just a dream,' he murmured. She leaned down and
abruptly kissed his cheek.
'It's time to go,' she said. They dressed in silence,
but just before they left the holosuite he put a hand on her shoulder and
turned her to face him.
'There are a great many things I could teach you,' he said.
'And I think you'd prove to be an apt pupil, but you should also remember
that the young can be wise, wiser than their elders, sometimes.'
She nodded, seriously. He was not sure that she understood and,
obscurely, he found this reassuring.
'Remember that,' he said again, and stepped out into the chilly
brightness of the corridor.
END